Our Infinite Universe: I'll scream till I'm sore, but I'm only screaming at that same wall....

So my sister told me that a 13yr old in my town committed suicide because they were being bullied...

To me that hits home... When i was a kid I was bullied. I completely hated school. I had very few friends, but the friends I had were always there for me. I was a lot heavier in middle school and high school. I was made fun of for being fat. I always thought that i would never amount to anything. I was completely and utterly depressed about the way i looked. When i was 16 i got a boyfriend... i thought great!!!! He really loves me for who i am and what i look like.

Mistake #1... believing that he actually cared. He was just as bad as the kids making fun of me. He would constantly put me down, and I stayed around because i thought that no one would ever want me. He even cheated on me, but i still stuck around.(Mistake #2) At that end of that tumultuous relationship it was the end of senior year... By then i was completely burned out. I went off to college in the fall(just to a local one) He eventually told me that he wasn't attracted to me anymore and no one will ever want me.

I was completely done! I couldn't handle it anymore... I got away from the people that made my life hell in school... and i needed to get away from him. Even after 2 years of not dating him he still bothered me. He would send me nasty emails, texts, and even come to my job and try to get me in trouble with his new girlfriend. Reaaaallll presssh right???? I thought i finally escaped...By this point I had friends that would do anything for me, and my one friend went to the local police department to file a complaint. Just in case anything would happen....

From Back then till now(this very second) has been a rocky journey for me. I was in and out of relationships. In and out of school not knowing what i wanted to do. I probably drank too much and smoked too much. I ate too much. I dieted too much. I was all over the place...

Looking back at all of that at this very moment... I could honestly say I'm a stronger person because of it.

Always Remember:

Never EVER let anyone put you down
Don't let anyone tell you that you are worthless
Be able to learn how to walk away from any situation
Learn to love yourself
Your true friends will stick by your side...No MATTER WHAT!
Fight for your life... you only have one
When bad things happen rise above and conquer them
And always know that wherever you are, if you are alone or not... that someone loves you!!